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#fuckboy #he's trying to help bc he works for a place that does financial assistance etc for people w disabilities #so he's spent all morning gathering info for me to try and help #he's worried bc two hospital visits in a week #and I know he wants to help and it means so much #but I'm so fucking disenchanted and by this stage even hospitals can't help me #because of what my old psychiatrist has done #she may as well have signed a death certificate #and it's so hard but he tells me to keep fighting and he's exploring avenues he's got some kind of extra access too #to* #and making me promise to call them and apply for help and see how it goes #he's only in reception so he can't pull strings for me but he knows shit that other people don't #and honestly if it weren't for him and shay idk where I'd be #and this is why I get so angry when k and m and everyone call him a fuckboy #and tell me to forget him and all that shit even though they know I can't and won't #a wouldn't spend his work day worried over me and trying to find somethin to help me #and I can't function right now at all but he hasn't run away and he's trying to help and it means more than I can express #but I just cannot shake it at all and I'm crying again I have been all day #and I don't know what to do because I can't function enough to even shower or eat. #***the fucking tags fucked up it's meant to say would a fuckboy do these things to help or something #and me I can't remove the first tag that just says fuckboy now I wanna die again lol fuck all of this
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