still alive my buddy called the cops bc she’s in melbs 800kms away and even I didn’t know what I was gonna do and halfway through talking to cops the dude texts to see what’s going on and calls me once they leave bc I hadn’t replied

I was so close to getting caught by cops smoking weed bc i was gonna light up a quick one and hope I crashed out and I was getting it all together when my dad knocked on the bedroom door

in short: still alive, lost one of my best friends/found out my rapist is back in Canberra/overwhelming feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness, still alive whether I like it or not